Pioneers and Pomegranates (To come in installments)

The road met the tires of Paige’s Conestoga-looking car without much sound.  Not like the night before we left.  I’ve never been any good at distinguishing makes and models based on body shape alone, but maybe it was an Explorer.  A Pioneer?  There is such a thing as a Pioneer?  I’ll have to ask when we talk next.  I remember the color resembled eroded copper.  Its metallic skin chipped and scared by years of beatings from hot salty gusts of air; the same air responsible for the windowless backseats. The hurricane drove us out.  Our ocean village fell off its supports into the water.

                We left behind people.  Those who’d decided to stay tried to rebuild what was lost, mostly old folks from church.  My parents made me attend until the day I graduated high school.  I can’t call those folks stubborn though.  I mean, I convinced Paige to stay.  I told her, “a million times that weatherman tells stories.  He’s just as good predicting the temperature as a penny on heads.  Chances are, even if he’s right, two’s not a scary number.  You remember a few years back?  A category three.  My dad took me up to his cousins.  Nothing more than a few snapped branches—

“What’s wrong?”  She wasn’t listening.  Her face revealed only a profile.  Her neck exposed and pink, met her collar bone draped in beads and shells.  Her nose, a bit pointed, flared.  Her hair looked wrapped in coils, a solid brown, covering the freckles on her cherried cheeks.  She wouldn’t let me see those yellow eyes flecked in grey that so often swallowed a room whole.

A few seconds of silence, still is all I can bear.  Paige’s silence controlled my movements.  “What’s wrong?” Again, no sound.  I lifted my weight from the chair’s forest green cushion, and heaved my torso over the edge of the table shoved against the windowed wall.  My body extended across the table, fingertips reaching toward the bent elbows of cross arms.  My face must have looked pathetic.  My ligaments contorted for attention; a faint smile managed its way out of the corner of her mouth.  “And plus, babe, Mr. Keepins scheduled me to work that night.”  Mr. Keepins, the owner of the hotel, hated employees who’d call out.

“I’ve got a gut feeling, Reed.  We need to get out of here,” Paige said.

I twisted off my stomach and onto my back.  She looked down on me.  There’s not much arguing over a person’s intuition.

“We’ve always wanted to get out,” she continued.  “Why not now?”

“One day, I promise.”

“One day’s promise makes every other a disappointment.  It’s April.  We’ve been out of school almost a year.  I thought by now we’d have some sort of an idea for a future.  Instead we’re stuck here on the edge of this ugly grey ocean.”  She flipped around to stare out the window.

“Let’s leave next month.  When everything is in bloom.”

“You said that the day after graduation,” Paige said.

That was also the day I moved in with Paige.  We’ve known each other since the first day of Sunday school, even got baptized together.  But after nearly two decades of being preached at, the two of us decided to rent a room in a hotel offering a monthly discounted rate.  The room overlooked the beach.

The day of the hurricane, the ocean looked frozen in place.  Stagnant heat overcast by clouds green as apples, met sand white as crystals.  The wind began to purge sand, sifting itself through a colander shaped sky.

“I want to get a shot, Reed.”  Paige picked up the camera I bought on our anniversary.  A clunky thing she picked out.

“There’s no chance.  We probably need to head down to the cellar before too long,” I said.

“It’ll take five minutes.  Stay here.”

She slid past me before I could get another word out.

The room smelled like coconuts smashed into ashtrays.  The walls were a wooden maple tint.  I remember feeling the walls shrink, absorbing into me as I waited for her to return.  I told myself I should have followed her.  My hands gripped the edge of our bed.  My feet rubbed against the yellow carpet splattered with stains colored suspiciously red.  Had it been over five minutes?  Electricity slapped water.  The storm was done warning us.  A few feet away in the kitchenette, the coffee pot blinked 12:06.  12:06.  The power must have blacked out unnoticed.  It had to be at least 3:00 in the afternoon.  I knew because the spiraled clouds hadn’t begun to drain into the empty horizon until 1:30 or so.

A scream.  Or the wind?  Another electric flash.  Paige hated when I worried.  She’d say, “It makes me think you see me as a child.  Incapable.”

I didn’t think so.  But what did that matter?  12:09. I stood up, went for the door.  The brass handle shocked my fingertips.  Blond hair just beginning to grow on my knuckles shot vertical.  Through the window I saw flickers resembling a strobe light covered in artificial fog.  12:11. I couldn’t stand a minute longer.  The door flung open.  A sign.  I had to save her.

The world outside looked like something biblical.  Just, more colorful.  Rainbows pierced out every angle in the sky.  We lived on the second floor of the walk-up style hotel.  Our door opened to the staircase leading to a small cluster of trees, giving the hotel its name: The Pomegranate Palace.  I started to shout “Paige!” when the wind whipped up.  Its violent sound drowned out my voice like deafened whispers in an opera house, coming from an audience half-watching the middle of some easily forgotten castrato tragedy.  Tears of hurricane water dribbled over my chapped lips.  I began to lose sight of the tree garden just as gusty hands clawed out leaves like lions scraping antelope bones.  Another flash.  This time not as bright.  A figure appeared through the balding trees.  Paige and her camera.  Her camera should have been ruined.  The rain became so dense; a picture would have made people question why there was no scuba gear.  Literally, an ocean sky.  Crack.  A brighter light lashed across the atmosphere.  Paige’s figure unmoved.  She wasn’t hearing me.  My arms crossed and uncrossed over my head.  She wasn’t seeing me.  Red umbrellas torpedoed through the drenched air.  Stubborn girl.  She wasn’t afraid.  I was.  Adrenaline masked as courage pumped, or rather forced my body to the stairs.  I was halfway down before Paige finally noticed.  The figure in the trees seemed to wave.  A fleeting sense of relief loosened my grip from the slippery railing in an attempt to return her salutation.  And that’s when it hit me.  The second to last step smacked the living daylights out of me.  My shoeless feet suspended in space: the last thing I saw before it all went black.


                “Thought you could walk on water?”  Mr. Keepins laughed, holding a bucket in his hand.

The ceiling looked pixilated as I came to.  Black orbs spotted my vision, but I could still make out the stucco ceiling dressed in silver spider webs.  I was in the cellar.  A single light bulb dangled from a chain hypnotically.  Whatever spells it cast broke fast as my head followed its pendulum pattern.  Quickly a pain comparable to a lobotomy swirled out through the lump growing on the far side of my scalp, down every vessel in my body.  I clutched my chest, and released an insufferable groan when the soaking realization—evident by the condition of my saturated clothes, hit harder than a middle-aged man belly-flopping into a pool.  I never rescued Paige.

“Where is she?” I asked in a gargling voice as I sat up.  “Paige!  Where is she?”

“Simmer down, son.  Paige is out inspecting the damage.”

“What do you mean?  The storm’s over?”

“You’ve been out for a while, you know,” he said in a tone suggesting I should.

“Then why am I still wet?  Why are we down here in this god awful basement if it’s over?”

“Don’t you use the Lord’s name in vain.  You know better.”  Mr. Keepins’ stumpy fingers wagged over me.  “You’re still wet because water seems to be the only thing that catches your attention.  I’ve done filled this bucket up seven times trying to wake you.”

“Don’t you think one of the many beds here would be a more hospitable place to bring me back into consciousness?”  I could only ask questions.  Mr. Keepins face dimmed at this one in particular.  His face never looked so hallow.  “Well?”

“Reed…”  He paused.  The silence dragged.  “Reed,” he repeated.  “Reed.”  A third time.

“Yes!  Mr. Keepins, what’s going on?”  The ridged iron door up the stairs to the left crept open.  Light brighter than any florescent seeped into my dungeon infirmary.  A band of sunlight stretched across my eyes.  The figure opening the door could only be Paige.  “Is that you, babe?”

“You’re up.  I thought you’d sleep forever,” Paige said.

“Good thing I—“

Mr. Keepins interrupted me.  “How bad is it?”  He asked.

Paige started down the steps.  Her nose pointed toward her shoes.

“Paige?”  Mr. Keepins was desperate for a response.

She reached the bottom of the steps, and stared hard into Mr. Keepins.  “I’m sorry, Mr. Keepins.  There’s nothing left up there besides jagged slabs of concrete.”

He slammed the plastic bucket onto the cemented floor, shattering it to pieces.  He shoved by me and Paige, accidently kneeing the welt swollen on my head.  The intense shock of pain put me out again.  Instantly.

I woke without help.  No one greeted me the second time.  The cellar door was propped open, and tidal sounds sloshed together with the caws of seagulls.  The sun was up.  Everything appeared filthier when lit up.  Broken furniture, ruined fabrics, and split picture frames smothered in dirt had surrounded me.  I slid my fingers through my dishwater blond hair.  Dry.  At least I was dry.  I had enough of the damp odor.  It didn’t take too long to realize I was alone.  I’d been left behind.  It wasn’t much longer before I noticed the reason I was dry.  My clothes were gone.  Completely naked, and not even a towel to wrap around my bare waist.  I called out, “Paige!”  No reply.  Maybe the adrenaline from the storm boosted my confidence despite the fact it knocked me down a tier, but my stripped body didn’t seem to have a problem being exposed in broad daylight.  The real problem showed itself the moment I crossed the cellar door.

Nothing.  Almost nothing to be seen.  The hotel, our home, gone.  A trail of splintered concrete and warped iron littered into the sea.  Good thing there had been no reservations the previous evening.  Otherwise a guest or two—at least, surely would have died in the storm.  The sky though, never even hinted at its capabilities.  Besides the rubble, the only physical evidence other than the goose egg pulsating against my brain, there was no way to tell if so much as a midday shower passed over.

In that instant I felt empty.  Everything we had, taken by the ocean.  It sank slowly.  I was homeless.  On this rare occasion I accepted silence.

A whistle, much prettier than any bird, interrupted the quiet mourning of disaster.  Paige and her camera.

“Wait for it.  I’ll flash you if you flash me,” she said like she was blind.  Could she not see The Pomegranate Palace had been flattened?

“Stop.  What’s wrong with you?  Our lives are ruined.”

“How so?  No one’s hurt…” she paused while my hand rubbed my wound.  “Badly.”

I didn’t recognize how lucky we actually were then.  A part of me knew she was right though.  “I mean—never mind.  Where are my clothes?” She pointed toward the pomegranate trees.  My clothes hung limp over one of the few remaining branches.  I walked over to where she had gone when she left me.  She followed, photographing my unadorned skin.  Both the shirt and pants were blood stained.  I slipped them on nonetheless.  No other choice really.  How in the world did she survive this?  Some of the trees torn out from their roots, and potholes collecting sludge replaced the newly vacant spaces.  The trees left standing didn’t go untouched.  Impressions of fruit marked the trunks strong enough to still stand.  Paige clicked out a few more pictures before she bent down to pick up a pomegranate.

“You know you can’t just bite into that,” I said.

“I know, but we can save it for later.”

“What’s later?”

“You mean: when’s later,” she said.

I stared directly at her, still confused by her rapport.  I almost wanted to hate her for the lack of emotion, but then again, I felt like nothing at all.  “What’s the difference, Paige?”

“Plenty.  I say later today is better than any other.”

“What’s later today?”  Still nothing but questions.

“When we should leave,” she said.

“To go where?  We have nothing to bring.”

“Not true.  We have each other,” she replied.

She knew me too well.  Any hint of romance, and I’m yours for the manipulating.  “OK.  But we still have no place to go.  What about our parents?”

“They’re fine.  We’re the idiots who stayed in town.  And before you say anything about Mr. Keepins, he’s decided to let us go.  So don’t worry about the job anymore.”

“The missing hotel was the first tipoff in that department, darling.”  Our voices began to resemble the banter we were accustomed to.  “But really, where can we go?”

“Anywhere.”  Before I could say another thing more, she grabbed my hand, and led me to her Conestoga car.  “And hey, you’re already packed.”

The concussion on my head pounded too hard for me to want to relive its origins by asking what happened after I slipped.  So I let the conversation end there without any further explanation.

She parked across the street in a gravel lot.  Obviously she’d seen it since the storm, because when we reached it not even a gasp escaped her lungs.  The back windows were missing.  Shattered by debris.  I stood static.  She hopped in the driver’s seat.  Glass must have lined the inside of the car.  No way did the windows burst from the inside out.  Nothing large enough or close enough explained the damage.  A honk.  She tilted her head with an impatient sarcasm telling me to get in; it’s already been taken care of.  I let the mental investigation rest, jumped in the passenger seat, and beat my palm against the outside of the door.  We drove out of town without any sense of direction.

“I just want a few good stories.  We can go anywhere as long as we can find that,” Paige said as we crossed over the town limits.


                “I’m hungry.  Can we stop soon?”  I asked Paige.

“Reed, I won’t tell you again.  We only have a little over a hundred bucks left.  We’re gonna have to ration.”

“But I haven’t eaten since yesterday morning.  It’s almost dinner time.”  I wouldn’t look at her when I complained.

“Next time I tell you to stay, then you better stay.  If you hadn’t tried to come after me, maybe you’d have grabbed your wallet instead of almost killing the two of us.”  Paige kept her eyes focused on the one-lane road paved ahead.  Somewhere in the middle of Florida a detour led to a place almost identical to our little beach village.  Except instead of pomegranate trees, acres of banana farms lined both sides of the street.

“Dammit, Paige.  I apologized.  Can’t you appreciate that if nothing else at all?”

Her vision quickly shot over to the passenger seat, sizing me up and down.  “What’s that supposed to mean?”  Her glance locked on me.

“I’m sorry.  Don’t worry about it.”  In front of me, the light grey asphalt faded into mustard brown.  A dirt road just like home.

“All you know how to do is apologize.”

“Keep your eyes on the road.”

“Excuse me?”  Her face scrunched up like a Nottingham Catchfly as she divided her attention between me and the disappearing pavement.  “Answer me,” in a sharpened voice.  The pavement had dissolved into dust by this point.

“If you don’t, it’ll be you that kills the both of us,” I said, looking any direction but hers.

“I know exactly what I’m doing, Reed.  Just like I knew what I was doing before I dragged you off those stairs so we both didn’t get sucked up and crushed like some sort of accordion.”  The sun slipped between the banana peels, making every one look ripe.

“Really, Paige?  Then tell me.  Oh, please tell me what exactly it is that you’re doing.  Because, I don’t have a clue.  There’s always something else on the horizon for you, isn’t there?  Never one to be satisfied.  Especially if you can push blame on someone else.  And why not?  It works every time.  I’ll tell you what: it can forever be my fault.  I’ll be responsible for the both of us.  No way in hell should anyone expect any different.  I owe it to us because of how fucking lucky I am to have someone so sure of themself and the direction they’re heading!”  The wheels locked, and skidded across the dirt, kicking back smoke suffocated in dust.  The car stopped, and the tarp used to cover the shattered windows had come loose.  She had my full attention.  Her breath, shallow from being blindsided.  I never spoke to her in such a tone before.  Instinctively an apology bubbled up my throat, “I’m so—“

“Reed,” she interrupted.  Silence.  The smell of rotten bananas squished in through the missing glass.  My fingertips viscously snapped—a nervous habit that developed after a decade of untreated anxiety; they’d sometimes go raw from the stress of repetition—and my knees slapped together hard enough to feel the bone bruise.  Anticipating the worst, I relieved one hand so it could rest on the door handle.  “Reed,” another pause followed.  “I don’t think we should be—“ Bang.

Metal lacerated metal, squeezing the hood of a pickup truck through the empty rearview window; the two bodies collapsed together horizontally.  Mere inches separated us from another life.  I know, first a hurricane and then surviving the wreckage of a collision like that.  You’d think god really did exist.  Too bad it takes a tragedy to make one wonder.

Surprisingly enough, we all walked from the smoking rubbish unscathed, including the man who drove himself into us.  Though before walking, figuring out how to exit the deformed body of mutilated cars became top priority.  The accident pinched us into immovable positions.  The Conestoga’s rearview mirror caught the man in the truck, already ahead of us.  He kicked out his back window.  The man ducked through the opening he created.  Unable to keep a sense of balance, he landed face first on the ground.  Dust burst up around him like a hallowed mushroom cloud.  He wasn’t down but for a second before he shifted weight from his head to his knees.  Dirt and dust matted to a shirt, covered in a greasy substance I imagine looks a lot like the skin of a dinosaur half-evolved into chicken.  I couldn’t help but to feel sorry for the poor guy, at first.  A bit of a klutz, sure, but a smiley one who grinned at the sight of his followed reflection.  I couldn’t help but to show my teeth in return, and really his mannerisms have been the only recollection I have of the ordeal. He finally stabilized his footing with the support of the vehicle.  He slid inch by inch along the transformed metallic body until finally reaching Paige, and by some lucky chance, the driver’s side window had been rolled down before the crash.

“Hello madam, my name is Thos.”  he hiccuped. “Short for Thomas.” Hiccup.  “How can I help you young people this evening?” Hiccup.

“Are you drunk, sir?”  Paige asked.

“I sure hope not, madam.  I don’t think there’s a glass large enough to fit me inside,” Thos. slapped his beer gut like a gong.  Hiccup.

“Oh my god, Reed.  This man is drunk.”

“Sir, have you been drinking?” I asked.

Hiccup. “What’re you folks doing all the way out here any who?”  Hiccup.

“I don’t really have an answer for you, sir,” I replied.

“Paige fanned her face, not because of the heat.  “You stink, sir.  This explains a lot.  You know we’ll have to call the police,” Paige wasn’t asking Thos.

Hiccup. Hiccup.  “I don’t think you’ll have to do that ma’am.  I don’t even believe we have cell phone reception out here.  So you’d have to use our phone anyway.”

“Well, then I guess that’s what we’ll have to do.  Right, Reed?”

Thos. stuck his head through the window, passed the steering wheel, practically laying on Paige.  “Reed is it?”  He asked quicker than I could answer Paige.

“Yes, sir.”

Hiccup.  “All right, Reed, I like you guys.  Well half you guys.”  Paige shoved her body as far back into the seat as she could manage, lifting her arms like she was being mugged.  Hiccup.  “And since I like you guys so much, I’m gonna do you a favor.” Hiccup.

“Oh, god.  What could you possibly do for us the police couldn’t?”

“Not arrest you for trespassing.  This entire farm belongs to my wife and me.  Now I don’t remember inviting you over.”

Paige had no reply.  No excuse.

“I’m so sorry.  If we’d have known—“ doing what I do best, but got interrupted.

Hiccup.  “Now, now, now.  I’m not mad at ya.  Honest mistakes.  We all make honest mistakes.  Don’t we…  Uh, I don’t believe I ever caught your name.”  Thos. extended his hand.

“Paige.  It’s Paige.”

“Paige.  That’s a pretty name, Paige.  Have you ever made a mistake before, Paige?”  Thos.’s bent waist swayed side to side.

“Plenty.”  Her eyes wrinkled, she twisted her neck so to face me.  Thos. didn’t catch it.

“See!”  Hiccup.  “Everybody does it.  Man, I’m thirsty.”  Thos. pulled his head back and craned toward the sky.  The sun set.  “Whew, it’s getting close to dinner time.  This is what I’m gonna do for ya,” Hiccup.  “I can fix your car.”

“Sir, I think you’ve totaled it.  I’d really rather just let insurance take care of it.  And it’s OK, we don’t have to call the police, I guess.”

Hiccup.  “Hear me out now.  Boy, does that one have an attitude?”  He pointed at her with his thumb.

“Well, sir, you did just total her car.  I mean really, we all could be dead right now.”  I said.  Even if Paige continued to get harder inside as the days past, Thos. caused us to be stranded.  Though, a thousand miles away from home with no destination in mind sort of feels the same.

“Now, hush.”  Hiccup!  “Let me finish.  I’m a mechanic.  I got spare paint, parts, and even a few cars.  I’ll get your car fixed.  It was my mistake.”  Hiccup.  “I won’t be able to do a thing about it tonight, you know?”  I nodded to him.  “So here at the banana farm, this’ll come as a surprise I’m sure; we have a hostel for employees, the occasional vacationer, and even let people hide out here if they like.  Long as they help.”  Hiccup.  “Do you see these bananas?  It’s like we live in our own little country.”

“That sounds fantastic,” I was almost happy he rammed into us.  “Honey, don’t you think?”

“What other choice is there?”

Whatever.  I let her pout this time.  “You could always walk back if you wanted,” I said.  I knew she wouldn’t laugh.  Instead, a punch in the shoulder.  An improvement, at least.

“All right, folks.  You have a good evening,”  Hiccup.  “See ya at dinner.”  Definitely drunk.  The whole time, trying to convince us to stay on the farm, and then Paige had to shout four times before he realized what was going on.  And then, another twenty minutes to yank us out of our second demolished home.


Rainbow Pollution

April 27, 2012

It felt dry in Washington as the redline escalator carried Jasper out to DuPont Circle.  He planned to meet a good friend, Lena.  She texted him earlier that some fabulous news came out of the blue, and they just must meet up for a coffee date so she could spill.  This sort of news made Jasper nervous.  Surprises never go well for a person hidden beneath books all day, but he loved Lena and she loved Jasper.  As he stepped off the ascending stairs, the sun sunk into the marble monuments, leaving the skylight refracted into a color like rainbow pollution.  A bright flag hung limp straight across the metro station outside the café, where Jasper spotted Lena fingering through a Ginsberg poem at an outside table.  He quickly lit a cigarette before circling to the other side.

He only sucked down half a smoke before spitting it out.  These days one might’ve fined a person for lighting up near the open edges of an establishment.  Besides Lena never smoked.  Her cheeks rounded like peaches when Jasper tapped her back.

“What’d ya get me, lady?” he asked with an unforced grin.

“Oh, Jasper!  You won’t believe it.  Grab us a cup of coffee, and I’ll tell you everything.”

With rolled eyes and a twirl in and out the door, Jasper returned with two cherry white mochas.  He set the ceramic mugs lightly on the table so not to splash any froth on the thick striped shirt-skirt he admired on her.

“Thanks, babe.  How’s work?” she asked.

“It’s the bottom floor of the Library of Congress.  It blows,” Jasper replied.

“And not in the good way.”

They laughed at the inside joke Jasper had with all his girlfriends.  Lena sipped caffeine with both hands while yellow-gold irises singed together the green-grey hue of his.  He knew she’d reveal what brought them together that evening, but Lena took time making sure things felt right.

“So I bet you went home with that blonde last night, huh?” Lena asked.

“Sure did.  I couldn’t say no to a smile like that.” Jasper’s forehead reddened.

“You forgot to mention his ass.  Mmm, I bet that was firm.”  Jasper particularly enjoyed when women objectified men.

Jasper’s arms heated up.  He liked guys, but he himself was never one to publicly objectify.  Even though seven years had passed since his father spit words at him, claiming he’s too young to actually make a choice straight kids don’t.  This was after Jasper admitted the boy driving him to school freshmen year was more than a friend.  A good thing that was though; a father’s naivety meant sex slept over sex with legs touching toes at night.

“So…” he drifted his gaze.  The moon was coming into the night.

“I’m moving to Oakland Heights, Jasper.”  Silence.  “You heard me?  I’m leaving,” more silence.  Lena just moved to D.C. less than a year ago from Cincinnati.  The year before, she stayed in Kokomo for six months.  That was before living in El Paso where people said she turned up and left without telling a soul.

“But why?  Don’t you like D.C.?  You just got here.”  Jasper pleaded.

“I like you, Jasper.  I’m going to stay with beautiful people.  I can’t stay here in a box anymore.  So many rules.  Everyone expects me to walk and talk for them.  I’m my own person, not anyone else’s.  I don’t fit any metro role.  And why should I?”  Lena meant to comfort Jasper, but got lost in explanation.  She stood up bumping her hips against the table—because she was a person who could never handle conflict, causing the half-finished mocha to shoot into spongy sidewalk.

“Well, when’re you leaving?  We should go out one last time,” Jasper suggested.

“In the morning, sweetheart.  Will you take care of that?  I have to pack,” Lena asked.  Her hands anxiously pushed crimson hair behind pierced ears.  She began to rush off, but knew Jasper’s tendency to silently beg.  “Why don’t you come by in an hour or so?  You could help me pack.”

Jasper nodded to all above.  He knew she invited him for his sake, but still, the sentiment wasn’t lost.

The hour passed and he hopped the Circulator, getting off at the steps going down into her room.  Jasper saw black trash bags stacked against a wall through the door window wall fall over.  The knob locked.  Strange.  He knocked on the door.  Lena came out from her closet with a stuffed bag and swung open the basement entrance.

“Sorry.  I just have to,” Lena said.  He rushed her.  “I can’t feel stuck, ya know?  We’ll stay friends.”  Jasper huffed.  Lena already had a problem answering his calls living seven blocks away.  “Talk to me.  I know.  You can say.”

Jasper had walked all over to the baggage.  Cross armed and stiff he started, “What sort of person leaves without a day’s notice?  You’ve other friends too, ya know?  Have you told ‘em?  Or is this place just like all other places?”  Jasper loosened his arms and punched his chest, “Fuck’s sake.  Out of all people, you know me.  You say what I say.  Why now?  Lena, I love you more than any girl and most boys.  Our relationship is different.  Why do you always leave?”

Lena dropped to her feet.  Calloused, bruised, and tired; she edged across the closet’s threshold to sit in the mess she wanted so bad packed, but ran out of bags.

“Say something!  Do you feel a thing at all!” he screamed from nowhere.

“I feel,” cut short, Jasper yanked the travelling feet from the closet depths.  Lena flung her back on a new hardwood surface.  Jasper collapsed into the other body for the first time.  Their lips burned in an unknowable sin as tongues spoke tongues in language busting blue veins like gasoline meeting a single match.  The words came after.  The exact one’s only once.

Jasper let her go when the wet sun rose, and even though they parted, she always managed to float in and out of his life whenever one or the other needed a climax.

The Officer

April 26, 2012

A brief section of a larger work:


The officer’s gloved hands wrapped around Adler’s neck like a spiked collar, releasing as the back latch of the van sliced unlock.  Officer Mutton twirled Adler through the door just as it split open.   His badge number, which normally dropped from his neck like a guillotine,  tucked into the cop’s shirt.  I’m sure it happens all the time, but this time was different.  Six other cops surrounded Adler with cocked batons as he stumbled out of the paddy wagon alone, hitting his nose on a young officer’s steel toed boot.  The young officer looked down with a wince resembling a long forgotten sense of sympathy.  If only he’d remember when his older sister, annoyed and frustrated with a diary-reading little monster, protected him from the violent swats of a father’s disciplinary measures; the young officer may have shielded cracked wrists and bleeding eyes from metal footprints scarring the body half to death.  If only he hadn’t listened to Officer Mutton’s commandments like a guilt-stricken nun tethering her fingertips together with rosary beads, begging for salvation.  Then maybe Adler wouldn’t have awoken to an IV pumping the good-ole and most certainly legal, stuff into veins as blue as the rings traveling around his wrists.

“How did I get here,” asked Adler to an empty room.  His vision cross and pixilated, it took a few moments before the swallowing realization engulfed the surrounding blank, bare walls–he closest thing to him.  A weak, but persistent surge pushed through the heart into his drugged bloodstream and kept those speckle-gray irises wandering about those bone-colored walls.

Like a newborn zebra anxiously learning what she already knew to outrun the slobbery tongue of a single, green-eyed lion, Adler began to panic.  Where was Jeanie?  She didn’t see the cops pounce the protesters helping Adler build a jagged but new tent.  She didn’t hear the screams of people rot their own teeth with oaths condemning violent reactions.  She didn’t see the occupiers assemble against Adler after escaping a puppet handed herd of brainless, robotic officers hiding behind the next person in costume sporting adulterated boy-scout badges.  She wasn’t there to stop what happened.

Maybe if the herd of baton twirling cattle-people were forced to learn about any humanities class, then patrollers might occasionally forget their rubber guns and pepper spray grenades in service cars, underneath warm blankets brought from their homes in hopes to keep stubborn people protected from a violent winter storm because a few homeowners carrying signs demanding higher wages didn’t think to invite the wretched homeless in, to sleep on fashionable Ikea couches after watching a favorite documentary shedding even more light on the already too hot Arctic slipping deeper into a blackened ocean full of polar bear corpses and bloody Coca-Cola bottles.  Then they might not catch the flu their insurance plan can’t afford because the cheaper plan leaves enough cash leftover for the plane tickets their daughters need to teach Chinese children English all while children in Afghanistan (or maybe Uzbekistan? You know, the Middle East) cover themselves in dirt to keep cool while waiting days to enter a refugee camp–the only place left with food after economic warfare took their parents, ravaged lands, and put guns in their hands.  Don’t worry though, I hear for every three boxtops collected, General Mills sends a portion of help.  And it only costs eighteen cents a day to save a child’s life so he too can wear Nikes.  Plus I hear troops are headed somewhere else in Africa, I bet it’s Somalia… it’s got to be Somalia, to bring peace, freedom, and democracy because some dictator or something is causing civil war and raping women.  And now, if we don’t have to worry about losing our own soldiers to thoughtless violence because we’ve learned to fly tactical airbombers with joysticks, then soldiers can bring clean water in the spaces where all the weapons would normally go.  I mean we just have to kill this one guy who probably uses tear gas to terrorize people.  All they want is the vote, to be like us, to have representatives telling… well I’m not sure who, but telling someone to give all students affordable educations, properly preparing them for a competitive job market by placing GPA and volunteer hours in manicured hands, proving themselves successful by attaining the coveted middle management 40-hour work week and a 30-year mortgage, easily forgotten about inside SUVs waiting in line for grand openings of timeshares built in hopes of attracting tourists back to a beach filled with the stores you see on interstates, after some disaster control agencies took toothbrushes and baby shampoo to the feathers of greasy pelicans, victim to the wrath of a big oil CEO trying to make a buck.  As one great philosopher once said, “let them eat cake,” two helpings made of cheese!  Liposuction and antacid tablets for all to forget about the pains of a burning heart.  Leave that to the dying poets and painters co-opted into commercials because they too save money for a rainy day, inside where they’ll catch themselves on comfortable couches drooling over the real world through the same flat screen broadcast to the cheesecake eaters, wondering if the infomercial really can make them skinny.  Certainly not as skinny as the black baby on television with a cleft lip, but skinny like the drunken sorority girls dancing on sticky floors to a song feeding already-inflated egos gobs of glitter-mash; attracting mates in a ritualistic manner only children of parents who pay to have friends understand.  Money meeting money must find hands to account for all the worth because I’m certain they’re not going to sacrifice time locked in stocks, waging deals securing a digitized income, bargaining for a freedom they most certainly already have.  A freedom to watch skinny girls dance and fuck all their life. Gyrating only partly explains how a girl like that remains so thin, at least until she marries a balding alcoholic who laughs at the word jugs.  Then dancing isn’t as fun as they jiggle.  Together the nights become identical no matter how much more exciting it is paying to watch a movie up front with a barrel of popcorn doused in a bowl of butter compared to the monthly sweat-pant charge it costs to have a night out on the couch watching America’s Next Top Models talk about issues which only concern us when they talk, telling them both the fantasies they want either way.  Hypnotic repetition gradually shortens attention spans to seek pleasure any other way than clicking the mouse, flipping the channel. Finding cartoon characters speaking to crazies believing throwing out money and pills solve problems.

Try telling that to the trembling boy coughing out a limited number of breathes, never knowing he wanted to save the world until it threw him into the silence found on a dark street, crushing made-for-dirt bone and muscle with naturally violent forces.

“Oh god!  Jeanie, save me.  Where are you?” Adler’s little, inexperienced voice met no other.  Alone in an empty space piercing open white eyes with too much light, Adler couldn’t stand to see a moment longer.